Q&A: Are you like me? I feel different?
Question by Nick Monk: Are you like me? I feel different?
My name is Nick.
I have depression, ADHD and am currently on Cipralex an SSRI containing Escitalopram.
My IQ is gifted (98.5% of my peers) and ranges according to an international based IQ test 130-140.
I am hypersensitive.
My father was an abusive alcoholic and my childminder beat her children.
My last relationship ended with my girlfriend having sex with some guy the night before I went to see her at her uni, and of course dumping me.
I broke my foot while preparing for a national Taekwondo demonstration in Dubai before the tournament, complications arose in a ‘simple’ surgery and my sporting life is now gone.
I feel broken.
I also feel broken because everything I do in uni is easy. The people in my year that went to cambridge and UCL admired my intelligence and respected me, but as usual I had panic attacks in my exams and throughout the exam period, didn’t apply for special notice, and ended up failing that and am now in an average uni where I dont work, I just do over half the assignements and get 90-97% on them.
I seem to have an uncanny ability to decipher peoples persona’s very quickly and often end up knowing them too well which is when they break away from me for some reason.
People my age, or older, or perhaps regardless of age almost always seem simple (yes, stupid) because they focus on basic immediate social and personal issues whereas I incessantly debate over hypothetical situations, alternative possibilities to actions I’ve taken or that other people have taken in order to better understand their personality and logic.
My psychiatrists think I’m depressed because [get this] I’m WISE and I, quote, ‘see the world in a more complete way than most people because you think in a broader more developed fashion that supersedes your age and many peoples mental capacities.
If you aren’t like me you will call me a combination of arrogant, troubled… you know what, I can’t be bothered.
If you are like me, post a reply and let me know why. Maybe we can talk.
I want to find people like me, because frankly this world is becoming boring.
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sss
September 27, 2011 at 2:33 am
i dont think youre arrogant or troubled or anything like that..
i think i see things a little bit like you.. i dont have any of the life problems you have (like your father and childminder), but i DO have a gifted IQ, and i see other people as simple too.. its not that i look down on them, its just that i seem to able to see through situations easily, and they just seem to have a more simple way of thinking. i decipher people’s persona too, but they dont like it.
are you also quite a quiet person? i am.
Ginny Jin
September 27, 2011 at 2:50 am
I wish I did. Sadly I’m just an average depressive.
Simon R
September 27, 2011 at 3:19 am
I think your psychiatrists may be right. You’re smart enough to see the crap in the world for what it is and yes that’s damn depressing. I’ve often thought that the happiest people in the world are the ones who really don’t know what’s going on and live in their own little worlds.
I’m not sure I’m like you 100% but I do understand what you’re saying. Knowledge is wonderful but too much can be depressing for sure.
Sam S
September 27, 2011 at 3:31 am
Nick, you have are a living contradiction, and I mean that with absolutely no offense intended.
You see too much of the world, in the sense that you understand everything around you in a much deeper way. Most people see other people on one level; what they are most often like. It could be cranky, annoying, funny, enthusiastic, playful, etc. But those aren’t people; they’re moods or traits. You see beyond these traits; you see more of the human than even they do. As a result, you can understand a lot about then based off first impressions, which explains your uncanny ability to decipher peoples’ personas very quickly. Your mind is so intuitive that you come off as almost assertive, knowing more about them than they are quite ready for you to know yet. That explains why they break away from you.
I’d been thinking about the general concept your therapist mentioned even before I read this. Its gotten me very curious. Are people only happy when they don’t understand something? Is ignorance truly blissful? Do depressed people just see the world more clearly and for what it is; a place of tediousness and boredom?
I believe the answer is no. Your fantastic ability to let you see everything faster has given you the false perception that you have assessed everything about someone or something, when in fact, there’s a limitless amount of detail and information latent within every object.
My advice to you, Nick, is to slow down and really observe the details, rather than the big picture. Odds are, you’ll find that you’ve missed a lot of the little things, and really, those are the things that count.
- Sam S